Windows to life

Watching windows pass by, opportunities coming and going
Never do you know what it all might bring,
never do you know the dream hiding

Only by doing will you find out,
only by trying will the future be revealed

Watching lives pass by, possibilities not fulfilled
Never can you know what would have happened,
if you do not try for yourself

A window, a life, opportunities, possibilities
It's all there waiting for you, if only you dare leave
the box you hide within

Open the door, enter the room
Stop just watching windows
but become a part of the film yourself.

Releasing pain

Howling to the sky in agony abandoning all control
Releasing the pain which soars through the body like nails
Tearing wail after wail bounce between the walls
Echoing the burning throes buried inside

Leaving me empty when the voice loses its power
Exhausted I tremble as the sobs make their way out
Fat tears over my cheeks dry up as the source stills
Nothing left but a numb empty shell when I silently stand

Last petal

The petals fall from the rose,
one by one drifting to the barren ground
Silent they float upon the breeze,
which will not blow again
Bright red like drops of precious blood,
one at a time, lonely and lost

To fade to browns that covers the ground
Dry and barren earth,
with no nourishment left

Unmoving the stalk remains standing,
black and lifeless against the heavy sky

The last petal drifts slowly down
Hits the ground and breaks into dust
No ray of sunlight will ever warm that rose again
For now nothing is left, but dead memories and pain

It's over.

Mourning

I cry for the dreams broken
I cry for the life together now lost
I cry for all the things I hoped for,
all the dreams I had,
the fantasies about you which now never will come true

I cry for what we could have had together
I cry for losing you from my life
The things we could have built
The things we could have created
The things we could have grown

I cry for what you and I could have become together
The special unity, the merging of souls
The lives which would have sprung from our union

I cry for my love for you
I cry for my loss
I cry for a future dreamt of,
which now won't ever happen with you.

Prayer

Please help me heal from this pain,
before it tears me apart
Please help me forget and let go,
so I am no longer reminded
Please help me become strong enough,
that I won't be left crawling
Please give me faith and hope,
when darkness threatens the vision
Please give me the ability to trust,
that this is for the better
Please don't take away all my dreams,
for what would I be without them
Please give me room to grow,
and overcome this soaring agony
Please let me feel true love again,
so I won't die cold and lonely.